Hello Blog,
It has been awhile since I have written anything in a while and tonight seemed like a good night. Growing up I was a picky eater and while I'm trying to be more adventurous in my food choices, I have moments when it kicks back in. Tonight is a keen example of that.
It's turkey taco night, and when my turkey meat was browned I added a new taco seasoning/sauce I found at the grocery store. It was chunky.... one of least favorite qualities about food. Big ole pieces of tomato's and onions staring at me, mocking me. Then I had a moment, and started to PICK them out (with a fork). Pause.... Yes it was weird and strange, but then I realized it and HAD to turn this moment around. I can't let picky food habits and cringing tales of under cooked onions ruin my dinner tonight or any night. My solution to this was blending it down, making it smooth (a much happier texture for my mouth). The tacos ended up being quite tasty, and I was glad was able to get past my initial reaction. So then another question ended up bouncing around my head.
How do I get past my food quirks?
When I was young and we had family meals, if there was and ingredient I didn't like even if it was tiny I wouldn't finish my dinner. Example Cream of Chicken vs Cream of Mushroom. Now if I didn't know it was cream of mushroom I didn't care, but when I figured it out it was not a pretty sight. If the books that came out when I was teenager about hiding veggies in your kids food came out when I was kid, I would have been the target audience. In real world situations being a picky eater doesn't go over well, and no matter how old you get hiding things under your napkin doesn't work.
I'm not sure I have an answer to my problem. While I have gotten better at eating things that I don't like, at least I'm trying them and giving them an adult shot. But when I saw this chunky sauce tonight I got that gross food feeling in my stomach. Maybe its a texture thing, memory thing, a food looking pretty thing? I'm sort of lost for an answer. I guess the best thing I can come up with is that this is journey and I'm not finished with it yet. Hopefully by the time I figure this healthy lifestyle thing out I will be able to eat chunky sauce.
Enough with the stories of my weird behavior.
Love-
Katie
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Perception and Reality
So before I go into my post I deleted my last post "Happy Saturday" for no good reason. I was looking at my posts and had two in draft form that I didn't feel like using, but clicked Saturday instead. BOO! I hope that the readers who read it found something interesting... moving on.
This morning was frustrating because I was trying to figure out a problem not related to working out. Then I went to the gym and saw the elliptical as my problem and beat it to ground. Back to reality, I still have said problem but feel a tad bit less stressed about it. Anywho in beating it to the ground I had a personal best in millage and calories burned. I went about 4 miles, and burned 542 calories. This got me thinking. Looking at myself 15lbs ago, I COULDN'T have done that. After the lackluster workouts I had last week it felt really good knowing that I had improved.
My thoughts then went back to my weight and size before I started. I didn't see my size, or weight. I thought hey I'm getting chunky, then ate some more ice cream. I didn't see myself as size 18/17, but I was. Truth when I imagine a size 18, I see a very large person who can't walk well and has a multitude of fat folds, NOT ME. Which is really mean and I feel bad that my brain goes there, but it does. Taking a trip to reality town I was a fat kid who gained weight, and clothing size. Right now my perception has caught up with reality and they are slower merging to create a more mindful Katie. I can see that my body is changing, and I'm pleased with that. That I can work up a good sweat and feel ALIVE, not like I'm going to die. This merging of perception and reality has had an interesting affect on me, I feel like for the first time in a long while I can be FULLY accountable for my choices, all my choices.
I'm going to leave you with the thought of being accountable, because that alone has been the key to my recent weight loss.
Loves!
Katie
This morning was frustrating because I was trying to figure out a problem not related to working out. Then I went to the gym and saw the elliptical as my problem and beat it to ground. Back to reality, I still have said problem but feel a tad bit less stressed about it. Anywho in beating it to the ground I had a personal best in millage and calories burned. I went about 4 miles, and burned 542 calories. This got me thinking. Looking at myself 15lbs ago, I COULDN'T have done that. After the lackluster workouts I had last week it felt really good knowing that I had improved.
My thoughts then went back to my weight and size before I started. I didn't see my size, or weight. I thought hey I'm getting chunky, then ate some more ice cream. I didn't see myself as size 18/17, but I was. Truth when I imagine a size 18, I see a very large person who can't walk well and has a multitude of fat folds, NOT ME. Which is really mean and I feel bad that my brain goes there, but it does. Taking a trip to reality town I was a fat kid who gained weight, and clothing size. Right now my perception has caught up with reality and they are slower merging to create a more mindful Katie. I can see that my body is changing, and I'm pleased with that. That I can work up a good sweat and feel ALIVE, not like I'm going to die. This merging of perception and reality has had an interesting affect on me, I feel like for the first time in a long while I can be FULLY accountable for my choices, all my choices.
I'm going to leave you with the thought of being accountable, because that alone has been the key to my recent weight loss.
Loves!
Katie
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